Now I understand why they call them "the good ole days"

Don't you ever wonder how our moms were able to raise us "back in the day" and still manage to keep their sanity? I mean think about it; Let's look at car seats! They didn't even have them! They just put us on the seat and away they went, and we turned out fine didn't we? But we have to deal with an infant seat facing backwards, then an infant seat facing forward, then at a certain age AND weight they move to a booster seat, then again after a certain age AND height it's the booster seat without the back, then when the requirements are again met they can sit in the back.....with the seatbelt of course,nthen FINALLY When they are 21 they can join us up front. Ok maybe not quite 21 but you get the point! What made me think about the car seat is on my way to the store today Trace threw up in his car seat not once but twice...great, he was. Wet, all of his clothes were wet and his car seat was very wet! so on the way home I debated, I could either put him in a very wet and smelly car seat that he "belongs" in or I could put him in his brothers booster seat for the ride home. Well since I bought him a new pair of pants and a t shirt at the store, I opted to let him ride in his brothers booster seat. He was very excited to say the least, however he also thought it was funny to unbuckle his seatbelt not once but twice on the way home. I found myself panicking to pull the car over and get him buckled in and then it hit me "what did they do 30 yrs ago"? Did we really sit in our seats like well behaved children or did we bounce on the seats and climb from front to the back seats?

It's a start....right????

So today my neighbor invites me to join her in a jog.  First let me start off by saying that she is an avid runner, athlete, exercise guru etc.......however at one time not so very long ago she was where I am with the whole weight loss issue, so I know she understands more than anyone!  I want this healthier lifestyle so bad....mentally, however physically I struggle so bad!  My words definitely speak louder than my actions.  Today though I went with it.  I went on the jog with her.  What was strange though is that I WANTED to go!  We jogged around the block (30min. walk) the first time with several walk breaks and walked around the second time.  It was definitely tough and definitely out of my comfort zone, but when I got home I was soooo happy I did it!  I think what I need to do is to make an exercise schedule just like I schedule everything else and stick to it.  I don't make it a habbit of missing my other appointments whether it be at the doctor or meeting a friend for lunch, so why should I continue to make it a habbit of missing the appointments that are for ME, going to make ME feel better, that will make ME healthier, that will make ME skinnier, that will enable ME to wear a smaller size, that will make ME more comfortable, that will let ME have a better self image and self esteem.....(catch my drift?)  Anyway....I think that is what I am going to do.  I am going to go and make an exercise schedule for this week.  I think I will keep it light for the first week and go from there.  Thanks Katie!!

Why can't I just do it already?!?!

Ok so a question that I am really struggling with right now is why do I always start something and never seem to finish it....when it comes to ME. I have great intentions and mentally you could not stop me! However physically I am like a totally different person. I feel like I would be unstoppable......if I could only just get started! Anyone who knows me knows that I have always struggled with my weight. I feel like I have tried everything known to man....or have I? Truth be told I started with great intentions and for whatever reason never saw it through to the end...but why? What is it going to take for me to "love myself"enough to do it already? One of my fVorite shows is the biggest loser. I sit on my couch every Tuesday of every episode and get motivated.....while eating ice cream or some other non healthy snack that I am sure is going to make my muffin top a little bit fluffier! I love workout clothes, the environment of a gym, the thought of going and how I think I would feel after, and I would LOVE to have my main priority of the day to be exercising! I would love to be one of those people who HAS to exercise pretty much every day or they truly miss it. so again I ask.....what is it going to take? I watched on The Doctors the other day about thins new workout program called the Pink Method. Designed by women for women. I think it's like P90X but for women. Sounds great! I liked all of it till I got to the part where you have to follow their nutrition guide....no thanks, my interest level just went right down the drain! Is it easier to exercise in the comfort of your own home? Is the environment of a gym more motivating? At this point I am not sure where to start, but I know I have to do something. I am going to be 40 in a few very short months (and yes it kills me to say that), and I stress about getting older as it is. I think the best gift I an give myself is to feel better about myself and I know that I am the only one who can do that. I am just struggling to find what is going to work for me.

Why am I doing this?

Why am I doing this?  Well I started reading my neighbor's blog and they are quite entertaining!  I find that from day to day I am asking myself a lot of questions.....usually never get the answer but yes I still find that I am talking to myself.  So I thought maybe I would start this blog, talk to whomever will listen and maybe make a few new friends in the process who will hopefully have some good advice!

 I am a mom of 2 boys who keep me very busy.  Busy enough that I find between their energy, schedules, arguing, toys to pick up, bathtime, story time, laundry, keeping the house up, groceries, making and returning phone calls, and my "other" job, I rarely have any time for myself.....if you can believe that!  I also find that I am losing who I really am....which I never thought would happen. 

I hope you can bare with my on my dry sense of humor and hopefully I will not offend anyone!  Feel free to comment openly....I do not really get embarassed or offended too easily!